*+* Ashes *+*

my energy is wearing out like how the fire secretes it's prey into ashes...

Talkin' Bout Life

well.. mayb it's because of my mood so i guess i'd to start with a more depressed atmosphere..

it's been a very long time since my last update in this blog and so.. i've tons of things to bla around here.. lolz.. i see its better to express myself here rather than talking to someone cause you know... sometimes its really hard to actually tell the others how we feel.. i wanna tell, but who's ever gonna belive whether how true is the thing that i said..

i'd been living with my god monther for the past few weeks,
(very strange huh? u muz be wondering why am i not at home)
its simple,
actually i don't really know what happened to me myself,
i'm kinda like always looking for something to worry and always sad..
and for those who doesn't realy know me,
i'm an outdoor person,
shutting myself in a room or a place for a long time is gonna make me feel like panetrating d wall..
i don't know what's wrong with me.. maybe it all started since d day i falled for a lil' girl in ma school..
she's cute actually,
a kinda princess type of girl who knows nothing bout this world..
at first i wasn't really into her,
i know her when she came for duty as a prefect at d 4th floor where my class is on..
that time i was still a guy who likes to flirt around with girls, so i asked her for her number..
she refused to give me so i just tell myself ' fine! she's just a girl to be fooled, who cares? '
mayb i was saying that a lil' too early as in the end,
i'm d one who'd been fooled for the past 6 months..

i don't know since when,
i started to think about her everynight,
well that ain't something good for me,
cuz since after my ex broke off with me,
i'd never put in any trust in girls cause they breaks whatever promises that they've said..
okay, not to recall too much of the sub topic..
i felt not right after a few weeks so i asked my friends who're prefects for her number..
she knew it,
and maybe she just don't like me so she warned all her friends not to give me her cell phone number..
okay, fine, and after about 2 months,
hahahaha...
opportunity comes to me~




to be continued....