Back Into The Cage

Ah~
i'm finally back into the cage again..
unimaginable..
how dark or how bright will it be..
was that the right decision i made?
or
would that be anonther starting point
for me to fall again?
i don't mind falling and falling..
its just kinda boring isn't it?
falling n falling for the same reason..
its like you never grown up from your mistakes..
or shall i say it this way,
its just a 'pause' in my life,
cuz i don't wanna keep going on,
so i would rather keep myself from falling and drowning into the river than moving on..
moving on to the 'sea' that could sunk a huge ship..
i'm just a tiny lil bad ass..
i wonder how would i look like when i'm drown in the middle of the ocean......

i don't know if all of the cages are comfortable,
but it seems to me that its creepy,
i'm just like a bird,
love adventure,
love to flap my wings and fly as far as i could,
but i'm not a bird..
i can't live by my own..
that was what happened when i left the cage..
the others took me as a betrayer to my owner..
everyone leaves me,
everyone takes me as the faker,
and whatelse?
do they feel happy ruining my day?
do they enjoy seeing people EMO everyday?

YOU GUYS ARE CRAP,
said that you're a friend,
but what you've done when i'm down?
backstab me?
leave me?
hurt me without knowing the truth?
you feel proud that you're not me?
of course you do!!
cuz you're not undergoing these stuffs,
you don't know how we suffer,
you don't know the feeling if you're just letting go of something but the whole world leaves u alone..
you don't know how does birds like us feel!!
what you know is,
supporting what is in front of you~
don't even know whether it is the truth or not..
i feel sorry for you that
YOU DON'T HAVE ANYTHING VALUEABLE,
WHAT YOU HAVE IS A MOUTH,
ACTING LIKE A RADIO,
SPREADING NEWS IS YOUR PROFESSION!!

you ever think of our feeling?
NO!!
you guys are BRAINLESS COPYCAT!!!
keep following the trend
whithout knowing the true meaning of it..
i feel sad for you,
as you don't even know how to live by your own
you're just a parasiter
only know how to depend and follow the others..
you don't have the CREATIVITY OF PERSONALIZE YOUR CHARACTERISTICS!!

Days In 4S1~~

It's going to b the 9th month,

for me to study with all my friends in 4S1..

well well well..

happy days passes like flowing river..

never stop n never get clotted..

lolz..

another few months time n we're gonna b seperated to different classes..

u know?

its nice to make friends around..

although some of the smart ones are kinda EGO~~

but well..

there're still those who are willing to help..

glad tat this world is balanced..

hahax..

but its hard to b balanced isn't it?

its always easier to find an evil friend like me than those who're like an angel..

lolz..

when am i gonna b tat angel??

i wanna b angel but..

it seems like its not my characteristics..

hahax..

so..

mayb i shall b d human n let d angels help me..

its good to be helped but..

its kinda shameful if we always ask for ppl's help rite?

hahax..

well..

these are some pictures of my days in 4S1~~

Ms Eu's Convo~~

Yesterday evening..

say bout 5.20pm, i went n attended my former BIO teacher's convo at USM..

lolz..

she looks cute tat day..

putting on her blue coat n a square hat..

lolz..

running round d field excitedly looking for her friends to take picture~~

hahax..

she was just like a lil gal..

n i was like her photographer..

running round with her taking pictures..

lolz..

i was wondering..

do i physically look like her bro?

lolz..

dunno y ppl keep askin whether i am her bro..

well of course..

i'm not..

but after her convo i'll b like her bro..

hahax..

no more my teacher..

lolz..

but she's a good teacher actually..

n we usually bullies her..

sorrie for tat~~

hahax..

Carol the old carot, Yee Ching n Audrey came tat day..

lolz..

to celebrate with her..

they wore like..

i dunno how to describe

but i was shock to c them..

lolz..

sorry for tat gals~~

hahax..

take a look>>>

i think..

we're gonna miss her notes..

lolz..

after she left our class,

everything related to BIO we hv to do by our own..

i guess everyone's gonna miss her notes n exam tips..

hahax..

i don't know how but it really happens everything..

d tips she gave us was like 80% of the test papers tat we took..

lolz..

creepy isn't it?

hahax..

guess wat we did during her lessons?

>>>

tat boy over der is Mr. Lim's son~~

n he's talking with Audrey~~

hahax..

nice day at school~~

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XM!!

phew..

worked so hard for tis exam..

but doesn't seems like i could handle it well enuff tis time..

i screwed my physics, chem n add math..

lolz..

well..

i know i cant keep going on like tis..

but i cant help..

mayb i shall figure out a way to solve my prob..

hahax..

u noe wat i did during the exam?

take a look at this~~

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Useful Way

Well..
since i wrote d first blog..
i find tis lame thing tat i called previously quite useful as a place where i could express myself..
hahax..

today isn't a good day for me..
i had nightmare early in d morning..
its kinda cool story actually..
the nightmare goes like tis

~~STORY STARTS~~

first,
i was walking on a quiet street in d midnight,
i saw a motorcycle passed by to d junction in front..
he's riding very fast..
a saw a lorry passes d junction from left to right,
what i feel weird was,
d rider's like a ghost or something creepy..
d motorcycle din hit d passing lorry,
but it got over it..
i mean..
its like..
a shadow..
lolz..
n then,
dunno how but somehow,
i figured out tat i'm dead..
lolz..
i went back home after tat..
i tried to talk to my family,
n they could c me..
d next day,
i saw my ex came with her mother..
looking at my dead body in d coffin
crying..
dunno y..
its kinda weird..
lolz..
i feel like talking to her,
or mayb saying goodbye to her..
but she cant hear me..
lolz..
so i went off..

~~END~~

then i woke up~~
hahax..
n one thing tat shocks me was..
when i woke up,
i found my pillows are kinda wet cuz of my tears..
lolz..
swt..
i dun even noe tat i'm crying..
lolz..
mayb ghost cries too..
its only tat we don't know..
lolz..

1st Blog in Blogger

Ah... can't belive tat i've done something so lame~~
i know its a waste of time,
but,
i can't help..
cuz its my only choice between starring at tis stupid 'silver box' or d boring text book..
i don't like to study,
but studying makes me feel ecstatic~~
i'm hyper'LOW' now..
i dun mind if u bother me..
but pls dun stimulate my 'invisible highly explosive' feeling~~
it wont kill u..
but i assure u..
u'll make me crazy~~



Life is short..
so we shall play harder~
no matter what happens,
juz make sure tat u're happy n satisfied everyday..
if u dislike it,
crash it;
if u want it,
go for it;
if u love it,
fight for it!!
only the strongest,
sacrifices everything only for a word satisfied;
only the losers,
walks out of d battle n dont give a damn about it!!
so don't ever say u're unsatisfied,
cuz you're d one who decides yr own life!!
we're not made by god to suffer,
we shall fight to prove to god that we has his genes!!

CHEERS FOR VICTORY!!