This Love..

Since the day i told you i love you,
i knew that i mean it,
i knew that i start worried bout you,
i knew that i start caring bout you..

But,
i never thought that i would be so serious in loving you.
At first,
we were just friends,
and i thought that we're just gonna be friends forever,
but after some time,
i find that you're somehow..
the person that i'm looking for..
the person..
that i would be attracted..

Although there's quite some distance between us,
but i'm gald that
its not the 'feeling' kind of distance,
but it's the real distance..
that makes me feel like..
we're so far but yet so close..

I guess u'd turned into many things in my life..
you're like an ecstacy pill,
that makes me feel so 'high',
that makes me feel so addicted,
when i chat with you on the phone,
or even receiving a short txt from you~

you're like a protected species in my world,
that makes me wanna keep you away from the others,
that makes me wanna take care of you,
that makes me wanna be there for you all the time,
that makes me wanna protect you..

I may not the the best guy you've ever met,
but i'm willing to be the guy who would wait for you,
no matter how long it is,
without any promises,
that you'll certainly be mine,
a guy that would hold your hands when you feel alone,
a guy that would hug you tightly in his arms to keep you warm,
a guy that would lend you his shoulder when you're down,
a guy that would hide you behind him when a stranger's walking towards you,
a guy that would work his way out to make you smile when you're sad,
a guy that would feel happy when you're happy,
a guy that would wake you up every morning,
a guy that would think about you no matter what he's doing,
a guy that would drop his tears when he see you bleed,
a guy that would accompany you when you're lonely,
a guy that would hold your hands and tell his friends that 'she is the one'...

We're very far apart,
you're almost half a world away from me..
and if we got winter over here,
i guess the only place where i can seek for warmth is to read yr txt..
althought its from a distance,
but i guess you'd know how cold i am,
so you'd heat up your txt with love,
and send it to me,
so i could always felt your warmth..


to be continued~~

Hopin'

Okay!!
I'd decided to write it out..

Its about a girl..

she's an ordinary girl,

kinda sweet, caring and friendly..

and we knew each other through my ex~

~
lolz..
its funny isn't it?
~

okay let's start..

few weeks ago..

i was too bored being alone at home doing nothing,

so i decided to go on to the net and find somebody to chat

~
cuz as you know,
i'm a great chatter..
i love to talk..
to all,
even strangers..
haha..
~

anyway,

after that,

i logged in to my messenger account..

scrolling up and down looking for friends..

well..

that time was about 6-7pm,

most of'em were away from their computer..

then i met 'her'.

We started to greet each other and start chattin'

i'm glad that she's kinda open minded person~

~
haha..
easier to chat cuz there's no need to choose a suitable topic..
~

so we started to chat..

about school,

about our normal day life,

about people,

we chat about everything around us..

and..

after some time,

i find that she's a person that i could really trust and..

a person which i could tell my feelings out..

i was very please to chat with her cuz that time i was like..

kinda EMO..

lolz..

and then,

coincidently,

i was askin' for my cousin's phone no. in Colorado,US..

and i find its kinda fun 'txt'ing with people half a world away from me~

haha

i really do enjoy that~
lolz..

so i asked for her phone no.

she gave me,

then we start tryin new stuffs..

lolz..

~
to all my friends,
i can tell you,
its really fun to have friends all around the world!!
haha
~

back to topic~

after a few weeks..

we're gettin closer and closer..

i don't really know how she feels about me but,

i guess i'd start feeling 'addicted' to her messages..

well..

i know it takes quite some time for my message to reach there and for my phone to receive her message..

so i was like waiting for her messages with my all my patient everyday..

and after some time,

i find that she starts panetrating into my heart~

*sounds kinda vain but i have to say*

i don't know since when,

i always feels worried about her..

always wondering what she's doing over there..

always wondering is she tired or not..

always thinking bout her..

well..

i don't know what people call that but..

i guess my feeling towards her isn't that straight..

er..

~

owh,

too bad,

i'm blank and i don't know how to continue writing this blog anymore..

lolz..

wait..

calm down~

okay let's continue..

~

well actually,

i wanna talk to her about this cuz..

i have make things clear before it get worst right?

but..

i don't know why i just ' lost my balls' when i wanna bring that topic up to her..

lolz..

i guess i'm thinking too far away..

maybe she's just taking me as normal friend~

and i don't even know shall i call this as

interested, like, or a crash..

anyway~

better than feeling disappointed after asking,

so..

i guess i shall set a mind that we're just friends..

anyway,

i don't know whether long distance relationship could work on me and her or not..

hahax..

i know i trust her,

i don't know bout her but..

maybe i shall do something to prove to her that i'm someone who's worth to be trusted..

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Aftermath

Whao~
what a great feeling..
was kinda busy for the past few weeks so i didn't have time to write my feelings out~
well..
my life's kinda fantastic thanks to my fellow 'buddies' who 'painted' up my days..

today,
9th of september:

i woke up at 3am and rang my buddy in () up~
lolz..
she wasn't late for school thannks to my kindness..
i slept after that..
afterwards,
i went to school as usual..
well..
one thing that makes me wonder..
it wasn't raining this morning,
but the way the people drive out there was like..
it's a hyper down pour~
swt..
i wonder why they get such nice cars,
but they were driving like the cars are humble..
just like the turtle crawling on the beach..
how the hack they're damn passive~
lolz..
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i reach the school and as usual,
we started our lessons..
just right before the school bell rings,
a few prefect came in and spot checked our class..
lolz..
i was smart for not bringing my phone to school today~
hahax..
so i wasn't worried~
but u know what?
i end up got demerit just because of my highlighter..
for god's sake~
everyone brings highlighter to school,
mine is just special because its' eraseable..
and these 'dog' eventually..
confiscated both my pink and yellow highlighter..
OMG!
of course i'm not giving up for this matter,
i told the prefect that i'm going down to see the senior assist..
cuz i don't understand why he wanna confiscate mine..
so i went down..
u know what she told me?
she says the HM says cannot bring means cannot bring..
cool..
now i see how she do things..
she's just a follower..
doing things without her own opinion..
i understand that rules are unbreakable,
but its impossible for us to follow every rules..
rules can be broken at the right time~
in fact,
based on the facts,
the highlighter that i owned weren't something that is harmful,
so why cant?
1st, since its eraseable so there's nothing to worry about if i draw something on my desk with it,
cuz its ERASEABLE~
2nd,i know the reason why they dont allow eraseable pen to be used in our school, its just because they don't want use to cheat in exams by correcting our answers, but since its a HIGHLIGHTER, how would i cheat?

ISN'T THAT RIDICULOUS?
lolz..

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